Blog = Pseudo Intellectual chauvinism

This blog is triggered from a persistent thought. of wanting something or having a desire to be in somebody's shoes. let me explain.  Often the emotion 'jealousy' has so much negativity attached to it, that this word is not part of our daily vocabulary.                                        Ever heard unapologetic laughter and thought that you want to be part of that group. what's the joke they are sharing, is it a memory, are they discussing somebody else. This is the laughter that one of my most awesome friend shares with her mom. they are friends first and then defined by blood. It’s not the joke, nor a gossip piece, or a memory.... it's actually nothing sometimes. My analytical mind has to come up with some rationale, so I feel that the actual reason is that they complete each other. they don't need any one to have a party. they are not looking at anyone else to bring humor to the table, if others join along, then it's just a bonus. I would love to have

 "I want to sit with friends who dont judge and I just want to have a good time" .... this is what one friend told me. I got it....'You be you' .. 'I be me'... we find a common ground to connect, converse and respect each other.  Including my years studying, it will be 20 years in the USA this fall. 13 of the 20 were spent in one city. My formative years of making a family, making friends, increasing my friend circle to finally decreasing my friend circle. Last 5 years, i stuck with 4 other families....didn't find the need  However we changed cities..we didn't know a soul in the new place...I struggled a bit ....I felt as I did in my first year in the USA. slowly we met people...I realized that I enjoyed speaking with people who were so varied from me...I was not trying to find my tribe I focused on identifying why I like to meet the people that I meet. There may be many qualities but atleast whats the one quality that I love about them. I was clear th

I just happened to remember that I wrote a blog in my past life and managed to remember my webpage and read some of my posts. I don't relate to that girl....last post was 13-14 years back. I want that girl back.... what has changed............ 2 bright kids have been added to my life :))) and bella... Many many pounds added ... Some baggage of relationships.... lots of memberships (netflix ...prime..sling..disney.. etc etc) what hasnt changed........... The need for my parents.... movies sports.. many friends still remain today and still talking about losing weight... cheers to that...